I was having my evening tea enjoying my space and solitude when something flew by. I peered to the right to see where it went and immediately lost interest in that tiny little whatever. Something bigger had my full attention. Termites!!!!!! Termites had joined me for evening tea. They were crawling on my lampshade, on my side table and when I opened the drapes, OMG they were all over the window…inside my house. I thought, well this was unfortunate…….or was it?
Life after the big house found me living in my tiny house Francis. 625 sq ft to be exact. I have had the house for many years as a rental but since I was starting my life anew, everything else had to follow suit. I gutted the house completely from top to bottom leaving only the bathroom vanity. I never made it to the things that needed to be done on the outside. I left the wood around the windows that needed to be replaced, the siding, the caulking, the unsightly electric conduit running up the walls, the plywood I had covering up a hole where the old wall ac unit was…all of it….I left all of it unprotected from outside forces to make their way into my home. Why? I fell in love and was enjoying domestic bliss on the inside of my newly renovated home. Interestingly enough the relationship followed that same pattern by being left unprotected and was penetrated by outside forces…… or was it?
Unlike the house, my personnel journey followed the opposite. For so many years I dealt with everything on the outside making sure there was plenty of protection that nothing made its way in. Moving into the tiny house was a metaphorical journey of my involution. Gutting everything that no longer served me and diving deep into my being.
Unity's principle number 3 states “We are co-creators with God, creating our reality through thoughts held in Mind" which means everything on the outside is created by you.
The question is how did it get into you in the first place? Every experience on the inside had to originate from an experience you had on the outside. It came in and it went out …… or has it?
The journey inward has to also be expansive. It's a flow that shows up everywhere, naturally. Breathing in-breathing out. Muscles tense-relax. Heartbeat expands-contracts. Food in-food out. Sunrise-Sunset. Spring-Fall. Some things take a bit longer to expand and contract but rest assured the opposite will always occur in its own time and in its own way. Most often the time and importance of what’s happening between those swings are overlooked.
Look within to where termites (fear,doubt,anexity,loss,sadness) have left you hollow. What's left behind that needs to be repaired or expanded beyond?
The termites didn’t just appear in one night, the relationship didn’t end overnight, experiences happen on the outside that we take inside and at some point they must go…..they are finished.
By the time I had finished hunting for termites I had replaced the siding on 1/4 of the house, restored 4 hundred year old pocket slider windows, rerouted unsightly electrical conduit, added new electrical for lighting, found the leak in the AC that contributed to the wet wood that termites love to eat, replaced a hot water heater, painted the house, saved myself thousands of dollars with sweat equity and the last project I finished was the first one I wanted to do when I moved in. The Porch. As I said, everything happens in its own time and in its own way. The porch, where many have laughed and cried, sipped bourbon till the wee hours and coffee early morning, fought and made up. The porch couldn’t be completed until all the other things where completed. All the old siding and window trim that needed to be replaced to protect the homes barrier became another expansive layer to the porch and its enriching evolution.
Now that it is finished I have completely moved out of my tiny home. Termites turned out to be just what I needed to get me moving towards the next layer of expansion into my being.....that is not finished!!!
Love & Wisdom
Sachi
