The possuk in Parshas Nitzavim says, “Ki hamitzvah hazos etc. lo niflais he mimcha vilo richoka he etc. ki karov eilecha hodavar meod bificha ubilivavcha lo’ososo”- “For this mitzvah is not hidden from you and it is not distant. Rather, it is very near to you- in your mouth and in your heart to perform it”. The Ramban is of the opinion that this mitzvah is the mitzvah of teshuva. Included in the accomplishment of this mitzvah is the vidui performed with the mouth, regret on aveiros of the past accomplished with the heart, and commitment to rectify one’s actions in the future, amongst several other details.
The possuk says that it is ‘karov’-an easy mitzvah to undertake. Reading the Sha’arei Teshuva of the Rabeinu Yonah, the direction manual for teshuva, indicates otherwise. Rabeinu Yonah lists many countless and difficult tasks to undergo before accomplishing a genuine teshuva. How does this coincide with the possuk?
Rabeinu Yonah, in several different places, writes that the fundamental of teshuva is merely the determination and resolve to mend one’s ways. Once one makes that commitment, he is already considered a ba’al teshuva.
Similarly, the Pesikta writes in the name of Rebbi that the power of teshuva is so awesome that the moment one just decides to do teshuva, he immediately ascends. He rises all the way to the kisei hahavod as the novi, Hoshea says, “Shuva ad Hashem”.
Proof to this is in the Gemorah in Mesechta Kidushin. There it says that if one who is a rosha gamur married a woman on condition that he is a tzadik gomur, the marriage is still valid. Even though, at that moment, he is a full-fledged rosha, we can speculate that he may have done teshuva. This is true even if he did not take any of the steps of teshuva delineated in hilchos teshuva!
How do we understand that a person can achieve the status of ba’al teshuva and tzadik gamur without having taken even one step of the tedious demands of teshuva?
Rav Yerucham Levovitz taught us a fundamental yesod regarding teshuva. People mistakenly understand teshuva to be relevant exclusively for one who sinned. The more sins one has, the more teshuva one is required to perform. It is not so. Teshuva, in essence, means to connect and come closer to Hashem regardless if one sinned or not. Certainly, if one did sin and in turn became distanced from Hashem, he is required to return to Hashem, but teshuva is not exclusive for aveiros.
There is a well-known question. How can it be counted that we have aseres yemay teshuva- ten days of teshuva? If included in them is two days of Rosh Hashanah and one day of Shabbos, then three teshuva days are missing from the count? Vidui is not allowed to be said on these three days, and on Rosh Hashanah we refrain from even making any mention of ‘chait’! Ten days of teshuva does not seem to add up!
According to Rav Yerucham’s yesod, indeed all ten days are definitely considered days of teshuva. However, some of the days are not days of teshuva from sin, rather they are days designated to be miskareiv to Hashem. Shabbos presents a great opportunity to connect and grow closer to Hashem. Rosh Hashanah are days of being mamlich the Eibershter on ourselves and on the entire universe, broadening our connection and hiskarvus to Him.
The avoda of the month of Elul is teshuva- returning to Hashem and forging closer ties to Him.
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