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Seeking God
A book which propelled me along on my faith journey was a devotional Bible of my mother’s. I picked it up when visiting her house “way back” in the early 2000s. I happened on a meditation on Psalm 91. The writer stated that reading that psalm every day for a month would change my life. I took that to heart and began to memorize it. I recited it in my mind while I swam laps, when I couldn’t sleep in the middle of the night, and when I needed otherwise to remind myself of God’s faithful care. I still say it occasionally and am assured.
The poetry and comfort of that psalm led me to search out others that I could add to my store, and most recently I have landed on Psalm 63: 1-8.
“O God, you are my God. I seek you,
my soul thirsts for you;
my flesh faints for you,
as in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary,
beholding your power and glory.
Because your steadfast love is better than life,
my lips will praise you.
So I will bless you as long as I live;
I will lift up my hands and call on your name.
My soul is satisfied as with a rich feast,
and my mouth praises you with joyful lips
when I think of you on my bed,
and meditate on you in the watches of the night;
for you have been my help,
and in the shadow of your wings I sing for joy.
My soul clings to you;
your right hand upholds me.”
These days I recite this in the morning when I wake up. It reminds me that it is okay not to know exactly what God wants of me each day, or even whether I have followed the path God intended for me in past days. It matters that I continue to look to God and look for God. I don’t have to doubt that God gave me the Living Water and the Bread of Life in Christ. My job is to keep looking for that every day, to stay open to the joys big and small, to the gifts both subtle and striking; to the nudges in this direction or that.
I can stand in the shadow of God’s wings, cling to God with my soul. I can sing my thanks for the steadfast love of God-Three-in-One. I am held.
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