It took me decades to be able to say that out loud. As a Catholic and Asian family, we were brought up to believe that "what happens in the family, stays in the family." We all suffered in silence, believing there was shame and stigma not only from his suicide, but also from his mental illness. Junior's suicide left us all reeling, heartbroken, and unsure how to cope for a long time.
Even though it's been 30 years, I still miss him every day.
It's important to me that I share my story now because today, September 10, is World Suicide Prevention Day. This is a day that raises suicide prevention awareness and recommits the world to ending suicide. The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention has resources for those struggling, actions you can take, and information on preventing suicide.
Junior is my why - he's why I became involved with Moms Demand Action for Gun Sense in America. He's why I choose everyday to fight for those struggling, for those left behind, for those who feel voiceless. And in finding my why - in finding my own voice - I've found a strength that's allowed me to turn my pain into purpose. And finding my purpose has finally allowed me to heal. I'm grateful you're with me on this journey.
With love,
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