Welcome!
A new decade is a great time to start a new thing.
And April might as well be a good time to start. I mean, it proves that I am a real, breathing, failing human being who does not implement anything successfully in January.
Here I am making my rather late debut into the World Wide Web. Many procrastinations later, alas I am finally here to curve out my little space in the blogosphere.
This blog is dedicated to the thing I have failed most in: Being true to myself.
I am one of those people who get it but don’t really get it. If I were I were to give a report of my life so far it would read: ‘Concerning disparity between potential and performance’. My existence so far has been kind of like a dance; one step forward, one step backward. Sometimes, two steps forward and three backward. For sure I am making progress, the direction is the problem.
Over the years I have dedicated a great deal of time towards learning a lot about anything and everything to improve myself. The trajectory has been slow but positive. I can say I have been failing progressively, if there is such thing. I am a self-confessed self-help junkie. Or to put it in a better way, a lifelong learner.
I am now right dub smack in the middle of life, actually and metaphorically speaking, I am neither too young nor too old, neither rich nor poor, neither sick nor feeling vibrantly well and neither dead nor alive. (Of course I am still here breathing and typing, it’s the lack of real living in my life that I am referring to.) This far, I have been the real the queen of compromise. I have given up everything that is me and important to me, bargaining with life for bits and pieces like a step child of the Universe. I have spent too many years in a job I don’t like, delayed my contribution to the world, compromised my earning capacity and sacrificed my joy. Finally, my true self has rebelled against this halfhearted existence that has consumed many years of my not so young yet not so old life. Enough! Enough! Enough! The fact that I am here writing this proves that finally I have gotten it, slow learner that I am.
This blog is to take myself on a long delayed journey. A journey to be who I truly am. To be
present
and
fully alive
and
vibrant
and
energetic
and
intentiona
l and
purposeful
and
powerful
and
healthy
and
wealthy
. To be the ninja that I am. To be successfully me.
Amanda Zoya
(Perfection pending)
