54 Although you can
love the Sonship only as one, you can
perceive it as fragmented. It is impossible, however, for you to see something in
part of it that you will not attribute to
all of it. That is why attack is
never discrete and why attack must be relinquished
entirely. If it is
not relinquished entirely, it is not relinquished at all. Fear and love are equally reciprocal. They make or create, depending on whether the ego or the Holy Spirit begets or inspires them, but they
will return to the mind of the thinker, and they
will affect his total perception. That includes his perception of God, of His creations, and of his own. He will not appreciate
any of them if he regards them fearfully. He will appreciate
all of them if he regards them with love.
55 The mind that accepts attack
cannot love. That is because it believes that it can
destroy love and therefore does not understand what love
is. If it does not understand what love
is, it
cannot perceive itself as loving. This loses the awareness of being, induces feelings of unreality, and results in utter confusion. Your own thinking has done this because of its power, but your own thinking can also save you
from this because its power is
not of your making. Your ability to
direct your thinking as you will is
part of its power. If you do not believe you can do this, you have
denied the power of your thought and thus rendered it powerless in your
belief.
56 The ingeniousness of the ego to preserve itself is enormous, but it stems from the power of the mind, which the ego
denies. This means that the ego
attacks what is
preserving it, and this
must be a source of extreme anxiety. That is why the ego
never knows what it is doing. It is perfectly logical but clearly insane. The ego draws upon the one source which is totally inimical to its existence
for its existence. Fearful of perceiving the
power of this source, it is forced to depreciate it. This threatens its
own existence, a state which it finds intolerable.
57 Remaining logical but still insane, the ego resolves this completely insane dilemma in a completely insane way. It does not perceive
its existence as threatened by projecting the threat onto
you and perceiving your
being as nonexistent. This ensures
its continuance if you side with it by guaranteeing that you will not know your
own safety. The ego cannot afford to know
anything. Knowledge is total, and the ego does not
believe in totality. This unbelief is its origin and, while the ego does not love
you, it
is faithful to its own antecedents, begetting as it was begotten.
58 Mind
always reproduces as it was produced. Produced by fear, the ego reproduces fear. This is its allegiance, and this allegiance makes it treacherous to love,
because you are love. Love is your power, which the ego must deny. It must also deny everything which this power gives you because it gives you
everything. No one who has everything
wants the ego. Its own maker, then, does not want it. Rejection is therefore the only decision which the ego could possibly encounter, if the mind which made it knew
itself. And if it recognized
any part of the Sonship, it
would know itself.
59 The ego therefore opposes
all appreciation,
all recognition,
all sane perception, and
all knowledge. It perceives their threat as total because it senses the fact that
all commitments the mind makes
are total. Forced, therefore, to detach itself from you who
are mind, it is willing to attach itself to
anything else. But there
is nothing else. It does not follow that the mind cannot make illusions, but it
does follow that if it makes illusions it will believe in them, because that is
how it made them.
60 The Holy Spirit undoes illusions without attacking them merely because He cannot perceive them at all. They therefore do not exist for Him. He resolves the
apparent conflict which they engender by perceiving
conflict as meaningless. We said before that the Holy Spirit perceives the conflict exactly as it is, and it
is meaningless. The Holy Spirit does not want you to
understand conflict; He wants you to realize that,
because conflict is meaningless, it cannot
be understood. We have already said that understanding brings appreciation, and appreciation brings love. Nothing else
can
be understood because nothing else is
real, and therefore nothing else
has meaning.
61 If you will keep in mind what the Holy Spirit offers you, you cannot be vigilant for anything
but God and His Kingdom. The only reason you find this difficult is because you think there
is something else. Belief does not require vigilance
unless it is conflicted. If it is, there
are conflicting components within it which have engendered a state of war, and vigilance therefore has become essential. Vigilance has no place at all in peace. It is necessary against beliefs which are
not true and would never have been called upon by the Holy Spirit if you had
not believed the untrue. You cannot deny that, when you believe something, you have
made it true for
you.
62 When you believe what God does not
know, your thought seems to
contradict His, and this makes it appear
as if you are attacking Him. We have repeatedly emphasized that the ego
does believe it can attack God and tries to persuade you that
you have done this. If the mind
cannot attack, the ego proceeds perfectly logically to the position that you cannot
be mind. By not seeing you as you
are, it can see
itself as it
wants to be. Aware of its weakness, the ego wants your allegiance, but not as you really are. The ego therefore wants to engage your mind in its
own delusional system, because otherwise the light of
your understanding would dispel it.
63 The ego wants no part of truth because the truth is that the
ego is not true.
If truth is total, the untrue
cannot exist. Commitment to either must be
total, since they cannot coexist in your minds
without splitting them. If they cannot coexist in peace and if you
want peace, you must give up the idea of conflict
entirely and for
all
time. [This requires vigilance
only as long as
you do not recognize what is true.] While you believe that two totally contradictory thought systems
share truth, your need for vigilance is apparent. Your minds
are dividing their allegiance between two kingdoms, and you are totally committed to neither.
64 Your identification with the Kingdom is totally beyond question, except by you when you are thinking insanely. What you are is not established by your perception and is not influenced
by it at all. All perceived problems in identification at any level are
not problems of fact. They are problems of
understanding, since they
mean that you believe what you can understand
is up to you to decide. The ego believes this totally, being
fully committed to it. It is not true. The ego therefore is totally committed to untruth, perceiving in total contradiction to the Holy Spirit and to the knowledge of God.
65 You can be perceived with meaning
only by the Holy Spirit because your being
is the knowledge of God. Any belief that you accept which is apart from this will obscure God's Voice in you and will therefore obscure God
to you. Unless you perceive His creation truly, you cannot know the Creator, since God and His creation are not separate. The Oneness of the Creator and the creation is your wholeness, your sanity, and your limitless power. This limitless power is God's gift to you, because it is what you
are. If you dissociate your mind from it, you are perceiving the most powerful force in the universe [of thought] as if it were weak because you do not believe
you are part of it.
66 Perceived
without your part in it, God's creation
is perceived as weak, and those who see themselves as weakened
do attack. The attack must be blind, however, because there is nothing
to attack. Therefore, they make up images, perceive them as unworthy, and attack them for their unworthiness. That is all the world of the ego is—
nothing. It has no meaning. It does not exist. Do not try to understand it, because if you do you are believing that it can
be understood and is therefore capable of being appreciated and loved. That would justify it, and it cannot
be justified. You cannot make the meaningless meaningful. This can
only be an insane attempt.
67 Allowing insanity to enter your minds means that you have not judged sanity as
wholly desirable. If you
want something else, you will
make something else, but because it
is something else, it will attack your thought system and divide your allegiance. You cannot create in this divided state, and you must be vigilant
against this divided state, because only peace can
be extended. Your divided minds are blocking the extension of the Kingdom, and its extension
is your joy. If you do not extend the Kingdom, you are not thinking with your Creator and creating as He created.
68 In this depressing state, the Holy Spirit reminds you gently that you are sad because you are not fulfilling your function as co-creators with God and are therefore depriving yourselves of joy. This is not God's Will but
yours. If your will is out of accord with God's, you are willing without meaning. Yet because God's Will is unchangeable, no
real conflict of will is possible. This is the Holy Spirit's perfectly consistent teaching.
69 Creation,
not separation, is your will
because it is God's, and nothing that opposes this means anything at all. Being a perfect accomplishment, the Sonship can only accomplish perfectly, extending the joy in which it was created and identifying itself with both its Creator and its creations,
knowing they are one.