Proof 2A from photoshoot on location in Venice, Italy

for International Fashion Magazine

Amy, age 27.."COLD!! I am so cold. The wind is blowing on this modeling shoot. I asked: "Can I go back to the motor home to get warm?"

"No!!" the photographer said in a scolding voice. So I got really got sick that night. I had strep throat. I flew back to Los Angeles to get help. The client didn't want me to go home but all they cared about was the money. I saw my doctor and was prescribed Steroids.

~I started hearing things in the house.

~I couldn't sleep.

~I couldn't eat.

~My thoughts were racing.

~I lost 30 lbs in a month; down to 90 lbs.  

I'm this perfect girl - I can't be diagnosed bipolar with psychosis.

  I tried to keep up the image that I was fine I had to be perfect but underlying it was awful. I was falling apart.

  I called my best friend Matt-- told him I am scared I need to go to the hospital I can't take care of myself.  

In the hospital I told the nurse that I felt like screaming. She answered: "you do that and they keep you here longer". My voice was silenced once again. I felt like I was trapped.  

Later, I am at home. I am so depressed. I don't and can't have friendships right now because of my state of mind. I'm going in and out of hospitals for months and months. Finally I lost my career. I want to die. So I tried. But I didn't go through with it. I prayed to God and all of the sudden I started thinking of what a wonderful future I could have if I could just hang in there and all of the friends that love me and whom I love. And He blessed me with the sunlight of a beautiful future no matter how bleak it seems today.

 

I fought. I fought for my life..."

For over a decade, Amy N.Elmore lived a life of glamour, fame and financial freedom of an international celebrity. By the time she was twenty, she had appeared on the covers of Seventeen, Elle and Cosmopolitan.  

It seemed like she had it all, but in her darkest moment she experienced a psychotic break. This led to depression, a near-fatal suicide attempt and a diagnosis of bi-polar disorder.  

Amy has overcome her demons to realize that her life's purpose is to help others to live  freer, richer, more fulfilling lives.  

   

She shares her years of struggle and how she reclaimed her life--discovered her voice and will not be silenced any more!