God calls all His children out upon the waves to encounter Him, and like Peter we must jump in to meet Him. However, anything God calls us to, He always provides the grace we need to answer. To be Christ’s apostle is not to shun weaknesses and failures, but to bring them to him as a small child would and ask for His redemptive love to make beautiful things out of our mess. When I first thought of this, I looked to Peter as an example. After the resurrection Peter reverted back to His old ways of fishing, and yet God sought after Him and called Him nonetheless. You can imagine how frustrated and angry he was at himself before God found him; he had caught nothing. This is what missionary life keeps reminding me of: God calls Peter out of himself and asks him to trust simply; “Cast the net on the right side of the boat, and you will find some”(Jn 21:6). Through this passage I realized that God uses our weaknesses and our failings to show that we cannot do it alone; we are nothing without God. This is the core of our apostolate: letting God use us as we are for the sole purpose of spreading His Kingdom