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A COURSE IN MIRACLES
CH 28 THE UNDOING OF FEAR
V. THE GREATER JOINING
39 Like you, your brother thinks he is a dream. Share not in his illusion of himself, for your identity depends on his reality. Think rather of him as a mind in which illusions still persist, but as a mind which brother is to you. He is not brother made by what he dreams, nor is his body, "hero" of the dream, your brother. It is his
reality that is your brother, as is yours to him. Your mind and his are joined in brotherhood. His body and his dreams but seem to make a little gap, where yours have joined with his.
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A COURSE IN MIRACLES
WORKBOOK for STUDENTS
Voice and Music by CIMS SonShip Radio
The real world is a symbol, like the rest
of what perception offers. Yet it stands
for what is opposite to what you made.
Your world is seen through eyes of fear, and brings
the witnesses of terror to your mind.
The real world cannot be perceived except
through eyes forgiveness blesses, so they see
a world where terror is impossible,
and witnesses to fear can not be found.
The real world holds a counterpart for each
unhappy thought reflected in your world;
a sure correction for the sights of fear
and sounds of battle which your world contains.
The real world shows a world seen differently,
through quiet eyes and with a mind at peace.
Nothing but rest is here. There are no cries
of pain and sorrow heard, for nothing here
remains outside forgiveness. And the sights
are gentle. Only happy sights and sounds
can reach the mind that has forgiven itself.
What need has such a mind for thoughts of death,
attack and murder? What can it perceive
surrounding it but safety, love and joy?
What is there it would choose to be condemned,
and what is there that it would judge against?
The world it sees arises from a mind
at peace within itself. No danger lurks
in anything it sees, for it is kind
and only kindness does it look upon.
The real world is the symbol that the dream
of sin and guilt is over, and God's Son
no longer sleeps. His waking eyes perceive
the sure reflection of his Father's Love;
the certain promise that he is redeemed.
The real world signifies the end of time,
for this perception makes time purposeless.
The Holy Spirit has no need of time
when it has served His purpose. Now He waits
but that one instant more for God to take
His final step, and time has disappeared,
taking perception with it as it goes,
and leaving but the Truth to be Itself.
That instant is our goal, for it contains
the memory of God. And as we look
upon a world forgiven, it is He
Who calls to us and comes to take us home,
reminding us of our Identity
Which our forgiveness has restored to us.
~ Original Hand Script
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A COURSE IN MIRACLES
DAILY LESSONS
L e s s o n 299
Eternal holiness abides in me.
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Voice and Music by CIMS SonShip Radio
My holiness is far beyond my own
ability to understand or know.
Yet God my Father, Who created it,
acknowledges my holiness as His.
Our Will, together, understands it. And
our Will, together, knows that it is so.
Father, my holiness is not of me.
It is not mine to be destroyed by sin.
It is not mine to suffer from attack.
Illusions can obscure it, but can not
put out its radiance nor dim its light.
It stands forever perfect and untouched.
In it are all things healed, for they remain
as You created them. And I can know
my holiness. For Holiness Itself
created me, and I can know my Source
because it is Your Will that You be known.
~ Original Handscript of ACIM
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ACIM Edmonton - Sarah's Reflections
LESSON 299
Eternal holiness abides in me.
Sarah's Commentary:
It is reassuring to know we can't corrupt our holiness no matter what we do. "My holiness is far beyond my own ability to understand or know." (W.299.1.1) Yet since my holiness is God's who created it, "Our Will, together, understands it." (W.299.1.3) Only when our ego is out of the way and we are plugged into our Source can we know our holiness. God Wills we know Him, and our own will is to know Him. When we unite our will with God's, which we do by releasing all that stands in the way, we can know our holiness.
We are assured by Jesus that holiness is eternal, abides in us, is our true nature, and indeed is our identity as the Christ Self. Yet when we experience anger, judgments, attacks, worries, betrayal, specialness, or temptations of any kind, we doubt our purity and our innocence, even though they are always there. If we don't experience our divine nature, we are actually choosing against it. We are, instead, choosing to identify with our thoughts and believe in them, and our thoughts are what lead to our experience. Investigating our thoughts and questioning their reality is how we bring them to light. When we don't feel a deep abiding connection to our Source but hold a lot of spiritual concepts, it is an indication we are putting on a "cloak of holiness. " This is the spiritual ego. It may look like a façade of niceness, sweetness, generosity, or innocence.
With this façade in place, we conceal emotions we judge as negative. We reject radical self-honesty and deep self-inquiry. We may compare ourselves as better or more spiritual than others. We may act superior, believing in our own intellectual understanding of spiritual principles as reflected in the Course. Holding onto concepts is actually a defense against awakening to who we are. This is all about the image of the personal self we defend. It is the spiritual ego that must be undone to know who we really are. We can't know our holiness and still identify with the individual, bodily self.
I have been reading a book called Awakening into Oneness, by Arjuna Ardagh, which speaks beautifully about this mistaken concept of the spiritual ego. In the book, there is a quote by a Tibetan Buddhist teacher, Lama Surya Das, who calls this belief in one's enlightenment, "premature immaculation." He describes it as someone who has had a peak spiritual experience and continues to cling to the memory of that experience, persuading themselves, and anyone else who will listen, that they have reached the pinnacles of enlightenment. It is then something craved for or talked about, but it is still an obsession with the "me" having these experiences. The problem is that honest self-reflection and genuine curiosity has ceased. It is not unlike the story of Jack Kornfield in his book, After the Ecstasy, the Laundry. Kornfield speaks of how holy he felt while in the monastery. He thought he had achieved a significant level of peace and harmony, but when he came back into the world, the same issues he had in his relationships before he entered the monastery were still there.
My life looked much like that during the time I was single. I felt I had achieved a high level of peace and I had gone a long way in my healing. Miracles were evident in my life and I felt loved and supported. I was living in a spiritual community in Sedona with few responsibilities. Life seemed to be in a beautiful flow. Then the next level came up for healing. It came through a relationship, where every button was being pushed. We got together under the auspices that the relationship would be dedicated to only one purpose---to heal. The relationship just seemed to happen without the romantic attachment that had initiated all of my other special relationships. It felt like it was orchestrated, at some level, for my healing, and although I did not experience "being in love," I did feel somehow this person was supposed to be in my life. Some years later, I recognized what a gift he has been in helping me to see so many layers of my unhealed mind. No, it has not been a lot of fun at times, but it has significantly accelerated my healing.
When we dedicate our special relationships to healing and holiness, Jesus tells us, "For here, the goal of the relationship is abruptly shifted to the exact opposite of what it was." (T.17.V.2.6) (ACIM OE T.17.V.44) Hence, our goal for the relationship is replaced by His goal. "This is accomplished very rapidly, but it makes the relationship seem disturbed, disjunctive and even distressing." (T.17.V.3.3) (ACIM OE T.17.V.45) The answer the ego gives to this kind of seeming incompatibility is to leave the relationship. My ego was telling me to do just that. "Go back to Sedona!" "Many relationships have been broken off at this point, and the pursuit of the old goal reestablished in another relationship." (T.17.V.3.8) (ACIM OE T.17.V.45) Yet I intuitively knew this relationship was perfectly set up by Spirit. It was actually set up perfectly by us and for us by our own right mind. While to the Spirit it was delicious, the ego rebelled tremendously; although, here I am today, feeling such love for the person I thought I did not want in my life. I am so grateful for this opportunity provided through this relationship to recognize the unconscious guilt in the form of anger and rage, which I had kept hidden from myself. I am so grateful for all the healing that has come about in the last few years. It has been such a gift. While the healing continues, it has become more gentle, and I do not deceive myself that there are not many more layers of defenses that need to be looked at. Jesus illustrates this process for us in the Manual for Teachers, where he defines the stages in the development of trust.
The ego tells us we will feel more holy or more spiritual if we are "sorry," if we are more "loving," if we are more "helpful" to people, if we become more "informed" about this Course, if we are more "ethical," if we eat only vegetables, and if we help the "less fortunate." All of these are good on the level of form, but this Course is about undoing the wrong-minded thought system through forgiveness. It is not about good deeds but where our minds are when we are giving of ourselves. We have many ways of putting on the cloak of pseudo-holiness because we think it is up to us to make ourselves holy. We think by being "nice" and by pleasing others, we can somehow cover up our judgments. We think we can hide our resentments and overlook the fact we are really giving in order to get something, whether it is recognition, appreciation, respect, love, or specialness in any form.
How do we know eternal holiness abides in us? Where is the evidence? Jesus says, "And I can know my holiness." (W.299.2.7) It is not hidden from us. It is not an obscure part of us. It is the truth about us. It is who we are. It is our Identity, but it is hidden from our awareness by illusion. "Illusions can obscure it, but can not put out its radiance, nor dim its light." (W.299.2.4) The illusions that obscure our holiness are like the clouds that obscure the sun. The sun is always shining, but it is not in our experience when the gray, overcast sky obscures it. These clouds are all of the judgments and grievances we hold.
How do we connect with the truth? We need to release our way of trying to make ourselves holy and instead go beyond the clouds of our own judgments, our anger, our specialness, our expectations, our control, and join with His Will for only "Our Will, together, understands it. And Our Will, together, knows that it is so." (W.299.1.3-4) ". . . I can know my Source because it is Your Will that You be Known." (W.299.2.8) This takes discipline in doing the practice daily. It takes an investment in looking at our thoughts throughout the day and being willing to take responsibility for them. Jesus asks us to be happy learners, meaning that everything that comes up in our day is all for the undoing of the mind. When we welcome it all, we don't judge any of it as good or bad. In fact, it is all perfectly orchestrated. Thus, we can go through our day with inspiration, rather than feel victimized by what is happening around us and to us.
We hold onto our guilt in the belief that we need to suffer. Today, I said "no" to someone who was asking me for help. My guidance was that the help being requested was not appropriate for me to offer, but I felt uncomfortable saying no. There was guilt that I "should" be helpful to everyone who asks. I felt guilty because I have been invested in people-pleasing. When this is examined deeply, we can see it comes from our belief in our own unworthiness. It is based on needing to be liked, which is not about asking and following the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Yet when our giving does not come from truth, we are sacrificing, which results in anger. In fact, the "gift" we think we are giving is actually a "gift" of guilt, resentment, and anger. When we "give" because we should, nothing of value is truly being given.
As Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj says, "Don't pretend to be what you are not, don't refuse to be what you are. Your love of others is the result of self-knowledge, not its cause. Without self-realization, no virtue is genuine. When you know beyond all doubting that the same life flows through all that is and you are that life, you will love all naturally and spontaneously."
How willing are you to reverse your current thinking? How determined are you to be right in the way you think now? To reverse our current way of thinking requires an acceptance that illusions are false and truth is true. That means we must look at our thoughts and acknowledge we have been mistaken. We simply do not know anything when we rely on our limited perceptions. We will be taken to truth only as far and as fast as we are ready and willing to go. It is up to us when and how. No one who believes he is guilty can know his holiness. If we insist on seeing guilt in our brothers, we are telling God His proclamation of our brother's innocence and our own is wrong. If we hold onto our beliefs in our unworthiness and our lacks, God would have to be wrong about our holiness. The beliefs we hold about ourselves are, in fact, arrogant because they defy God's proclamation of who we are.
The beliefs and concepts I hold about myself have never changed my reality. I can believe I have changed my reality. I can believe I have destroyed my innocence. I can believe I have altered myself and changed my nature by my evil deeds and attacks, but this Lesson and many others keep reminding me that I can't change the truth about myself. Eternal holiness abides in me. Our attacks on ourselves haven't worked to change what we are. We are still the holy Son of God, and we will always remain as pure and holy as our Creator. There is nothing to become. There is only the undoing of what we have made, and the bridge to our identity is forgiveness. It is the undoing of the illusion.
Sin and guilt, which occupy our minds and hide the truth from our awareness, will disappear when we have used time for its intended purpose. "The Holy Spirit has no need of time when it has served His purpose." (W.PII.Q8.5.1) Time and perception will both disappear when we have accepted the truth of who we are. An important question with regard to everything in this world is, "What is it for?" Time can be used by the Holy Spirit if we give it to Him for our healing. We need not get discouraged about how long this will take. "If you are tempted to be dispirited by thinking how long it would take to change your mind so completely, ask yourself, 'How long is an instant'? Could you not give so short a time to the Holy Spirit for your salvation?" (T.15.I.11.1-2) (ACIM OE T.15.II.12)
The key to it all is our willingness, which is what Jesus tells us takes a lot longer. Since this Course is all about healing through relationships, that willingness to heal starts with our relationships. As Jesus says, "You will never give this holy instant to the Holy Spirit on behalf of your release while you are unwilling to give it to your brothers on behalf of theirs. For the instant of holiness is shared, and cannot be yours alone. Remember, then, when you are tempted to attack a brother, that his instant of release is yours." (T.15.I.12.1-3) (ACIM OE T.15.II.13) This Course is ultimately practical. We release ourselves when we release our brother from our judgments, from our guilt, from condemnation, and from the demands we make of him due to our specialness, where we see ourselves as the center of the universe.
What we need to do is to be willing to look at our thoughts and beliefs and simply acknowledge they are not the truth. When we are willing to look at them honestly together with the gentle support of Jesus/Holy Spirit, we can start the undoing process. Looking in this way means we look without judging ourselves. We ask the Holy Spirit to reinterpret our mistaken perceptions. Everything we project onto our brothers is a reflection of some unhealed guilt in our own minds. The truth is, eternal holiness abides in us, and there is nothing we can do, or have done, that can change this about ourselves.
Love and blessings, Sarah
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V. The Greater Joining
37 Accepting the Atonement for yourself means not to give support to someone's dream of sickness and of death. It means that you share not his wish to separate and let him turn illusions on himself. Nor do you wish that they be turned instead on you. Thus have they
no effects. And you are free of dreams of pain because you let him be. Unless you help him, you will suffer pain with him because that is your wish. And you become a figure in his dream of pain, as he in yours. So do you both become illusions and without identity. You could be anyone or anything, depending on whose evil dream you share. You can be sure of just one thing---that you are evil, for you share in dreams of fear.
38 There is a way of finding certainty right
here and
now. Refuse to be a part of fearful dreams whatever form they take, for you
will lose identity in them. You
find yourself by not accepting them as causing you and giving you effects. You stand apart from them but not apart from him who dreams them. Thus you separate the dreamer from the dream and join in one but let the other
go. The dream is but illusion in the mind. And with the mind you
would unite, but
never with the dream. It is the dream you fear and
not the mind. You see them as the same because you think that
you are but a dream. And what is real and what is but illusion in yourself you do not know and cannot tell apart.
39 Like you, your brother thinks he is a dream. Share not in his illusion of himself, for your identity depends on his reality. Think rather of him as a mind in which illusions still persist, but as a mind which brother is to you. He is not brother made by what he dreams, nor is his body, "hero" of the dream, your brother. It is his
reality that is your brother, as is yours to him. Your mind and his are joined in brotherhood. His body and his dreams but seem to make a little gap, where yours have joined with his.
40 And yet, between your minds there
is no gap. To join his dreams is thus to meet him not because his dreams would separate from you. Therefore, release him, merely by your claim on brotherhood and not on dreams of fear. Let him acknowledge who he is by not supporting his illusions by your faith, for if you do, you will have faith in
yours. With faith in yours,
he will not be released, and
you are kept in bondage to his dream. And dreams of fear will haunt the little gap, inhabited but by illusions which you have supported in each other's minds.
41 Be certain, if you do your part, he will do his, for he will join you where you stand. Call not to him to meet you in the gap between you, or you must believe that it is your reality as well as his. You
cannot do his part, but this you
do when you become a passive figure in his dream instead of dreamer of your own. Identity in dreams is meaningless because the dreamer and the dream are one. Who
shares a dream must
be the dream he shares because by sharing is a cause produced.
42 You share confusion and you
are confused, for in the gap no stable self exists. What is the same seems different because what is the same appears to be unlike. His dreams are yours because you
let them be. But if you took your own away would he be free of them and of his own as well. Your dreams are witnesses to his, and his attest the truth of yours. Yet if you see there
is no truth in yours, his dreams will go, and he will understand what
made the dream.
43 The Holy Spirit is in
both your minds, and He is One because there is no gap that separates His Oneness from Itself. The gap between your bodies matters not, for what is joined in Him is
always one. No one is sick if someone else accepts his union with him. His desire to be a sick and separated mind cannot remain without a witness or a cause. And
both are gone if someone wills to be united with him. He has dreams that he was separated from his brother who, by sharing not his dream, has left the space between them vacant. And the Father comes to join His Son the Holy Spirit joined.
44 The Holy Spirit's function is to take the broken picture of the Son of God and put the pieces into place again. This holy picture, healed entirely, does He hold out to every separate piece that thinks it is a picture in itself. To each he offers his identity, which the whole picture represents, instead of just a little broken bit which he insisted was himself. And when he sees
this picture, he will recognize himself. If you share not your brother's evil dream, this
is the picture that the miracle will place within the little gap, left clean of all the seeds of sickness and of sin. And here the Father will receive His Son, because His Son was gracious to himself.
45 I thank you, Father, knowing you will come to close each little gap that lies between the broken pieces of Your holy Son. Your holiness, complete and perfect, lies in every one of them. And they
are joined because what is in one is in them all. How holy is the smallest grain of sand when it is recognized as being part of the completed picture of God's Son! The forms the broken pieces seem to take mean nothing. For the whole is in each one. And every aspect of the Son of God is just the same as every other part.
46 Join not your brother's dreams but join with
him, and where you join His Son, the Father is. Who seeks for substitutes when he perceives he has lost nothing? Who would
want to have the "benefits" of sickness when he has received the simple happiness of health? What God has given cannot
be a loss, and what is not of Him has no effects. What then would you perceive within the gap? The seeds of sickness come from the belief that there is
joy in separation, and its giving up would be a
sacrifice. But miracles are the result when you do not insist on seeing in the gap what is not there. Your willingness to
let illusions go is all the Healer of God's Son requires. He will place the miracle of healing where the seeds of sickness were. And there will be
no loss, but
only gain.
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